Things are picking up speed

It has been the same for the past few weeks, a ritualistic, rigorous cycle of classes, grading, meetings and increasing excitement to hear about the placement results.

Yes the placement results are not in yet and they are coming any moment. Come on! Show it to me!

Following up to that will be my resignation. I have been fervently waiting for the placement results to be in before I finally resign myself to my impending fate in Japan, though that was not to be with each passing day of lack of news. On Friday, I could not take it any more and went to work seeking advice from my colleagues. Immediately all of them were asking me to get the motion going - what is there to gain from waiting? I am already committed to going as I see it as an opportunity of a lifetime and they are not going to suddenly retract the offer. Neither do I have much to gain nor lose by setting things into motion. Which is quite true and the rational side of me has been saying that. I pushed myself to chat with my reporting officer and finally spoke to my director.

I shall wait until Tuesday to find out if they would keep me in July - otherwise, it will be my call on when I will leave.

Just 2 weeks back I spoke to my Japanese teachers in my current class about being accepted for JET. This week the other teachers who have taught me before came up and asked me about it. Oh gosh. Incidentally, next week is the last lesson for this term and in the new term of 10 lessons, the final tenth lesson shall be the one that lies smack on my departure weekend. It would be bittersweet to attend that one, if possible.

Is it too early to be moving on with life? While I continue to struggle with that question, deep inside me I know I cannot afford to wait any longer. Deep inside me there is a voice that says that life is short, and everything else ultimately is inconsequential. That is not in an irresponsible sense, but a sense of finality.

Looking forward to WT's solemnisation lunch next Sunday, and that brings me one step closer.

Kitto umakuyatte ikeru.